I was born in a traditional
Hindu family-namely Brahmins, who are believed to be Aryans,
A very orthodox community, with their own faiths and
customs, Gods and Goddess, Principles. A community which
raised lots of intellects, businessmen, great politicians
and Guru's i.e. spiritual guru's. We have our own
traditional books, Vedas, Agamas, Brahmanas, and Upanishads.
I was brought up by my father and mother, my father a
businessman and my mother a home maker. My grand fathers and
grand mothers, their sisters and brothers and relatives. A
very happy surrounding, with my early days like a deer
running around the forest, with their parents, I have a
brother younger to me by 3 ½ years. As usual I too had
fallen into wrong habits like smoking, drinking, talking
rubbish things, never respect elders, but I did have the
fear of God. I used to pray to the almighty God saying
"papoohum papak
kanmoohum papathma papasampava
thriviknum guruveah deva sarva
papa hari hare,
manasa vasa rashthabyam dehinam
pahinam"
I never realized that I am a sinner, even now people say,
"what is sin, where is sin, it is quite natural when you
find this you do it". I too felt strongly life is to live
and I should not waste my youth and be an opportunist,
survival of the fittest theories the world has taught me.
I had a very strong feeling that God is real and he is one,
all humans are equal before God and there is nothing unclean
before him. When God is real he will sure treat everybody as
his children and will not reject anybody. I understood that
the almighty God is in the form of light that is what I
learnt when I was taught the brahma sutra i.e. brahmopadesam,
the Gayathri Mantra.
What is the real essence of the sacred 'Gayathri Mantra'?
In our tradition (brahmins) 'Gayathri Mantra' is sacred, it
is very important. There is a saying before 'kama' enters a
person 'Gayathri' should enter him. The Gayathri is taught
to a student by a teacher, it is called 'Brahmopadesam'
where 'upadesam' means advice, and Brahma means the Supreme
God head. The teacher and the student cover themselves with
a silk cloth and the mantra is whispered in his ears, that
nobody should listen. After this brahmopadesam the student
gets the authority to perform Vedic rituals.
Gayathri = gayantham + thrayatha ithi gayathri
That means 'to save him who meditates or prays / worships'
in other words, the Lord will save him if he meditates or
prays / worships.
The Gayathri Manthra:
"boorbuvas
suvaha tat savithur varenyam bargo
devasya deemahi diyoyonaha
prachodayath"
Word by Word:
waha- who, naha - our, deeyaha - mind, prachodayath -
enlights our minds (or) to bring realisation in our minds,
tat - that, devasya - Lord in the the form of light (not sun
light), savithuhu - the one who created the universe,
varenyam - the most high, bargaha - figure or form, deemahi
- we meditate (or) pray.
Meaning:
The Supreme God head, who created the universe and all in it
is in the form of light, he is the most high, the one who
enlightens our mind that we would get spiritual realisation,
that Lord in whom I meditate and worship.
I used to think, why am I not worshipping the Lord who is
the form of light. I had so many questions within me; I also
believed that God can come in the form of a man and save
mankind. Things started changing in my life when I joined
RSS in my place, in the sense not an active member but I was
with them, listening to them what they say. Of course,
indirectly the teachings are to persecute Christians and
Jesus Christ, I had so much hatred for this community,
because they are converting people, changing religions, I
hated this by all possible means.
The Holy Bibles were distributed free in our schools, we
used to tear the papers of the bible and play while raining.
We used to sing songs commenting Jesus Christ. I had a zeal
for my own religion, my father and mother and everybody were
like that, against Jesus Christ and his teachings. My father
on the other hand struggled in his business, we were
affected financially, my father's friends cheated him, took
his money. My father's situation went serious day by day;
all the happiness in my / our life is lost.
I stopped my studies and took up a job which paid me Rs.60 a
day, about 60 men and women worked with me. Nobody would
have liked to continue with such kind of a job, which paid
less, going door to door. It is called Marketing research. I
had found a group of people who would always be singing
happily and smiling, even though they had more troubles than
what I had. But, I was not supposed to sit with them,
because they were Christians and namely, Pentecost
Christians, who were considered to be very dangerous, who
would mesmerize people, my parents and the Hindu community
had told me.
One night before Christmas celebration, I fell ill and my
body was burning with very high temperature, I could feel
the heat in my eyes. My father had advised me to sleep for
the night, saying the next morning we could go and see the
doctor as there were no round the clock doctors available. I
prayed to all Gods, my own Gods and the God of Christian
belief also, namely Mother Mary and Jesus Christ. The next
day I felt fine, and I guessed God is true, and he lives,
and I stopped smoking. When i had gone to the shop to buy a
cigarette, something stopped me from buying it. I believed,
it was Lord Venkateswara who healed from my illness (our own
traditional God).
For a week I never smoked or did any thing, apart from
thinking about Gods identity, I started hating work. Then
one day I happened to go and sit with the Christian group,
and listened to what they would sing and talk. One sister by
name Ms. Delsi told me to find a bible and search for
myself, and ask God" who is true, He will answer you, there
is no need to believe me" she said. I took it as a challenge
and said let me ask God if He is there, let me go through
the bible, which had escaped from my hands (I used to tear
them). While traveling by train I decided to go home and
then read the Bible, what it said? I reached home and took
the Bible (New testament) for the first time and began to
read book of Mathews, starting from chapter 1. When I read
the verse which says "Emmanuel means God is with us". I
stopped and started to think deeply and attentively. I found
my heart was longing for the love of Jesus Christ.
When my mother
saw me with the Bible, she scolded me, and threw the Bible.
That night I found it very difficult to sleep. I woke up
early the following day and, went up to the terrace of my
house with the Bible and started reading it. As I was
reading, my mother came upstairs searching for me and I
could see the anger in her face, my heart was very calm and
I did not fear even if she would have killed me I wouldn't
bother but I cant say from where I got that courage and
boldness. She grabbed the Bible from my hands and tore them
in front of my eyes; the papers of the bible flew by the
wind and fell on the ground. I wept as I could not bear this
and I went to the streets in search of the torn pieces of
Bible. Having found some of them, I collected them very
carefully and hid them in a secret place. I remembered the
past, how I used to tear the pages of the Bible, and now how
God made me to collect them with my own hands, Glory to God,
let his name be praised, He is above all and everything.
Amen. I grew in faith day by day, hearing more from the
Christian group, the God given fellowship group.
I was filled with joy and happiness, my body mind and soul
became so light, the burden of sin which was in me, was
removed and I could find that within me. I felt that I am
close with God, through the son of God, Lord Jesus Christ. I
understood the basic truth, that is no rituals, no mantras,
no tantras, no money, no authority or power can take us
closer to the God almighty, but through the Lord Jesus
Christ and by his pure grace and love we can get closer to
him. I found God is so near to me than I ever thought or
imagined. But, things changed in my surrounding, my parents
marveled, a person who hated Jesus and his teachings, is now
following.
My parents thought I was attacked by an evil spirit and they
invited a muslim man in our home. He chanted some mantras
and grace something to drink, I said thanks to the Lord and
I drank. I argued a lot and shouted at him saying that Lord
Jesus Christ is the true living God, who can deliver us. He
replied me and said, "you don't know about my powers I used
to close my eyes and read the Quran, you are nothing to me".
The next day early in the morning the Lord showed a Bible in
front of my eyes, and he asked me to read the passage from 1
Corinthians 6:7, where it says "Why do you not rather accept
wrong? Why do you not rather let yourselves be defrauded?" I
wondered the marvelous ways of the Lord Jesus Christ, and
how righteous He is, I am a sinner, when the Lord himself
suffered and gave himself to be defrauded why can't I? The
Lord Jesus Christ is really a prayer answering God, a living
Lord, He will sure deliver us from all trouble. He will
never lead me in unrighteous ways, or in sin, but he will
lead me in light and in perfection.
Actually, the Lord spoke to me and said the things are yet
to come which I didn't know. The muslim requested my father
to bring me to his place where I can stay for 3 days with
him. My father took me to his place, a place where all witch
craft things are there, buried tombs etc. I prayed inside of
my heart asking the Lord to deliver me from all persecutions
and trouble. The Muslim man, who did miracles in the name of
mastan, bava. He used to bring unclean spirits out of man
and women, and prophesied about the past very accurately. He
did some miracles in front of my eyes. In front of me he
called a unclean spirit from a lady, the unclean spirit came
out of her, and she closed her eyes and started circling the
2 tombs in great speed and later on she was recovered the
unclean spirit left her. I argued with the Muslim man,
saying that Lord Jesus Christ is the true God, the lady who
was delivered from the unclean spirit also heard what I am
saying, finally she said looking at the Muslim man, "Bai,
what you say is wrong, this boy is right" I thank God for
this. In the meanwhile, the Christian community started
worrying about me, they prayed for me to the Lord, to
deliver from the hands of the evil one. The next day, it was
around 7.30 p.m. I and the Muslim man, sat near the 2 tombs
about 15 to 20 meters away from the tomb. The man started
shouting "fire, fire," put off the lights", "put off the
lights". I didn't know what was going on, but, he asked his
last son to go and switch off electricity supply. I asked
him "what happened?" I went close to the tomb and found
nothing, he never came closer, I asked him what he saw? He
told me he saw a fire coming and resting on the tombs?
Praise the Lord, hallelujah, I understood it was my Lords
doing which was a surprise for others, the man told my
father saying that nothing could be done from his side. It
is from that very day the kingdom of that Muslim man
darkened, I heard from people saying that he could not do
anything like before.
After me and
my father coming back home, I firstly went to my people, who
prayed for me, to testify for the Lord and His doing. As I
was telling them they asked me what time this did take place
and I told them it was 7.30 p.m. They told me that it was
that same hour when they were praying for me, all of them,
and an elderly woman who had prayed for the anointing of the
Holy Spirit was anointed on the same day. And now, 11 years
passed in Christ in His love and care. God saved me through
His son, the one and only Jesus, in Him my soul rejoices.
The Lord is using me to deliver people from unclean spirits,
sicknesses, bondages and darkness. My desire is to serve the
Lord Jesus Christ and I want to proclaim the teachings of
the Lord Jesus Christ which are very easy and simple to
follow. Nobody in the world can help a man as the Lord Jesus
Christ, only He can help him easily because he is very
closer to him. Let the Lord of peace stay with us and lead
us in all Light, perfection, happiness, love and peace.
Amen!
Finally, I understood that Christianity is not a religion
and Jesus Christ is not a Lord solely for the Christians
alone. He is the son of the almighty God, and he came to
this world to save mankind from sin, bondage, sickness,
broken hearted, darkness etc. If you have any doubts please
do not hesitate to write to me or contact me. The motive
behind all these efforts is to bring good life to all and to
remove false doctrines and wrong beliefs.
The salvation is given free because you can't pay a price
for that. The healing and deliverance is given free, no need
to bring cash or kind. The doors are opened for the poor and
the rich and they shall me seated together, all are equal
before God and his son Jesus Christ.
THE TEACHINGS OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST:
"And He opened his mouth and taught them, saying" (Mat 5:2)
"Know ye not that the unrighteous
shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived:
neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor
effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, Nor
thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor
extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God". (1
Cor 6:9,10)
"Repent Ye: for the kingdom of heaven
is at hand" (Mat 3:2)
"But I say unto you, That whosoever
looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery
with her already in his heart. And if thy right eye offend
thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is
profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish,
and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell. And if
thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from
thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members
should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast
into hell". (Mat 5:28-30)
"But I say unto you, That ye resist
not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek,
turn to him the other also. And if any man will sue thee at
the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak
also. And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with
him twain. Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that
would borrow of thee turn not thou away". (Mat
5:39-42)
"But I say unto you, Love your
enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that
hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and
persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father
which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the
evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on
the unjust". (Mat 5:44,45) |